Arg

Turmoil among friends is the worst. I'm in the middle of this war between two very stubborn people. I'm not going to be mediator, we've all already decided that, but God, I just want to help! And I don't know what to do, and it's killing me. One friend wanted the other. The other was busy wither someone else. Now realizing a possible mistake, the other possibly wants the friend back, but I don't know if it can ever happen.

Why can't people just listen to me and do what I want them to do? Life would be easier. A friend of mine said this to me earlier, and it makes perfect sense. If people would just do what you wanted them to do...how you wanted things...it would just make your life that much easier. Even when those things don't involve you, except that you are the person who people talk to about their problems, and they won't listen to you. That's the worst. I know you can't live your life vicariously through someone elses', but damn, give it a try! I know that it's hard to step out of comfort zones, but I think that you need to live your life a little. Stepping out of your comfort zone every once in a while is a good thing. It opens your eyes to what you want and what you don't want, that way you're not always sitting there on your safety net, wondering why things aren't going the way you want them.

Blargh. I know both of these people are stubborn, and I know both of them read my blog. And I know both of them are being tools right now, and need to pull their heads out of their asses and get things figured out. This is hard on everyone. Including me, and I'm not any more involved than listening to each side of their story and trying to bring them together. ARG!!!!!

This is dumb, I've rambled on for too long. You know who you are, and no one else does.

I had a margarita for the first time in months tonight at dinner because I am PMSing and work was hell and I needed a stress reliever. This is the first time in my life I have ever used alcohol as such. And I was buzzed, and it felt good.

Good night.